the watchtower
There was a choice yesterday- to open my door to the Jehovah’s witnesses going door to door in our new neighborhood, or hide in the hallway that I had just entered and wait for them to leave. sadly, the latter choice seems to be my standard reaction when things like this ‘disrupt’ my day, and...
wrestling with joy
i have realized that i don’t write to get answers, i write to become. to experience. to taste. to watch. to process. to look back in recognition of what god has done, often forgotten as i turn to begin a new page in my notebook. had these years of stories and thoughts not been recorded,...
free
why, oh soul, do you act like a ship without a captain at the helm? as if the large vessel that you are could direct your life through the calms and storms of life all on your own? the invitation from the captain is to climb aboard and let go! relax in the sunshine, gather...
tasting dust
while driving on the highway awhile back, two pure white doves flew across my path, against the wind and right over the chaotic cars racing down below. these gorgeous beings seemed to fly right by my windshield almost in slow motion, not too far above the traffic level. it caught me by surprise. such a...
infusion
every breath, every step ordained by you who is above all circumstances, all situations, all fear and all trouble. why oh why do i let my soul be troubled when i see before my very own eyes the streams in the wasteland forming all around me my feet standing upon dry, red cracked desert floor...
chasing down the demons
this fight is so real. even though i believe it’s really all one giant collective dream we are participating in, the ‘realness’ couldn’t be any more tangible at times, so much so that i can all but grasp and taste it on my bittered lips. this morning has been a “where is god?” kind of...
Fighter, pilgrim, warrior
brave one: you are one of the few who chose this narrow path of obstacles and affliction. pilgrim: your journey twists and turns unforseen, a labyrinth of blessings and perceived curses, of both blue skies and raging seas. warrior: war on! keep the chin up and eyes steadfast on me sword raised in victory as...
7 words
i should be further along by now. in my career, in the making of my dreams a reality. with writing this book that i have been gifted all of the pieces of, but have to fully arrange them into finished work. almost 11 years of marriage and never in my wildest dreams would i have...
native spirit
oh native spirit wild soul passion is a must. throw off the dirt that binds you to this earth lift your eyes up from this filth, this dust pile you are laying in look up! look up! abounding peace, love and provision a promised land filled overflowing with milk and honey step over! brave spirit...
Permission
you are allowed to be both a masterpiece and a work in progress, simultaneously. stumbling upon this quote awhile back brought great illumination to a process i often get discouraged by. how blessed my soul becomes by the truth spoken in this thought! isn’t this permission the most comforting thing that we are all searching...
dear people who think they know me:
dear everyone who think you really know me: i do not know it ‘all’ by any stretch, but i do have some educated opinions about some things! yesterday there were a few different conversations that occurred throughout my day that bothered me. when i tried to give my opinion on things, i was either quickly...
writing myself whole
there has been an open tab on my computer now for over 9 months. it is an insightful podcast session that my husband Justin stumbled upon and passed my way, of which i had listened to the first 10 minutes months back when i first received this. Although what little of the chat i had...